- a little big
- good smelling
- lots of cushion
- dirt free
- brand spanking new
Now if these shoes can keep me on my running schedule….
It has been 6 years since I ran regularly. A lot has happened during those 6 years. I want my running life back! I love to run. I love the challenge every day of finishing what I’ve started. I love the blood pumping through my veins so hard I can feel every pulse. I love putting on new shoes. I love being done with my run for the day. I love the knowledge that I am doing what I can to stay healthy and strong. I love that running is just about me and my will to get up and get my shoes on. I love sweating so hard, it’s dripping off my nose. I love being done for the day . I love making my heart happy. I love being done.
When I see myself as a runner, I see myself as one who is strong, young (I know, but I SEE myself as young), and fit. I see someone who is disciplined and full of life, brave… I feel more alive and optimistic.
I started running again on Saturday, July 16. I have run every day since then, except today. Today is a day to rest so my muscles can recoup. Today is hard because I have to believe that I will get up and run tomorrow even though I didn’t run today. Today I am scared that my desire to run will wane before I wake up. And if that happens, if I don’t run tomorrow, does that mean that I am I not who I thought I was?
I’m not sure running scared is the highest motivation for exercise, but I’ll take whatever motivation I can scrape up!