August 16, 2015
This was taken the week of my diagnosis. The first Sunday that I knew. The first church service when we shared with people the struggles ahead. And God (and Jackson) gave me a gift. Jackson seemed to appear out of nowhere to sit with me that difficult morning. And he made it all bearable. 

I’ll have surgery in a few days.  I’m finally past chemo (woohoo) and now only have a few surgeries left to take care of this cancer and what it has done to my body. So I’m trying to stay focused on today. Think about today, live in the present, —- don’t be scared about tomorrow. My life is in his hands. He will see me through. 

Here is how I discipline my mind. This is what I think about instead of the scary future. 

“My heart is not proud, Lord. 

My eyes are not haughty. 

I do not concern myself with great matters or things too wonderful for me. 

I have calmed and quieted myself. 

I am like a weaned child with its mother,

Like a weaned child, I am content. 

Israel, put your hope in the Lord, both now and forevermore.”

~Psalm 131

I will relax surrounded by his love and mercy.  Like a four year old, sitting in his mother’s lap, I will lean back and know that He is taking care of me. 

Relax, lean back. Put your hope in the Lord. 

I hope you have a great day!