I was stretched out on a gurney today waiting for the nurse to come and take me to surgery, fighting back fear and tears, and wondering why it is still so hard to just relax and be confident in God’s care. I am suspicious that it is simply inherent in living a faithful life. It’s not easy. It doesn’t just naturally happen. I am constantly realigning my thoughts and emotions by dwelling on those things that I have decided to believe, that I have chosen to believe, and that I am compelled to believe.
So once again I fill my mind with Psalm 16. I am unable to entertain fear and doubt when I am praying David’s prayer in Psalm 16. Praise God for my little, non-multitasking brain. I can only think about one thing at a time.
Some stand out verses today:
Keep me safe, my God, for in you I take refuge.
You are my Lord, apart from you, I have no good thing.
Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places, surely, I have a delightful inheritance.
I keep my eyes always on the Lord. With him at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Therefore my heart is glad, my tongue rejoices, my body also will rest secure because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead nor will you let your faithful one see decay.
You make known to me the path of life and you will fill me with joy in your presence with eternal pleasures at your right hand.
The doubt just sneaks up on me all in the midst of my faith. It winds around and shows up a lot but it will not win. It will not consume me. It will not over power me. I will not give up.
By the grace of God, I believe. I believe the good news of Jesus Christ.
I hope you have a great day!
God bless you!